update…
There are so many things going on in my brain, and I will do my best to get them out here, and be more regular with my “blogging” Lets start with the new things.
I have some amazing people in my life, that I am so thankful are in it. there is the Owner, the Pup and the girl….
I am Bound to my Keeper/Owner, MzAsha, I am her boy and collared property, She is my Guardian, Protector and Tormentor, She owns the meat sack and bones that I am. We work together in many ways, she pushes me in ways that I cant fathom. I love her and hate her at times,, but mostly, Love and cherish.
I am in an amazing new open relationship with my girlpet, ravine. My prize possession that brings me a huge amount of joy. Enjoying exploration of everything that it is, and it is many, many things. Love, Lust, Trust and she fills a part of me, as my Daddys Girl/hauswife that I forgot that I missed.
I am currently the Key Master/Alpha Dog/SIR for Pakkun, an amazing puppyboy whom I am training into an adolescent companion dog. He gives amazing service, and is coming along very nicely. He fits in my world very very well. Requests to have him serve or to hold his chastity keys are to come through me.
I have an amazing Leather Family, and Tribe, that are my strength and “brains trust”. Closer than my blood family and certainly held more dearly. They are there whenever I need them, and I am there for them. Whenever. However.
I keep forgetting that I am both sides of the same coin, when it comes to bottoming or Topping, these days though, I am more the Top Man, (except for when it comes to MzAsha). though I have been pushing her in bad ways due to (I think) me being the Top guy to so many others. I question her judgement, and need her to push me into place, whereas for a while there, I didnt require the shoving, quite so hard anyway….
I like to think I am good at communication, as a Sir, I think I do ok, as a boy, I think I can come across as too whingy. I want to make sure that everything gets said, so there is no resentment on my part, but I find it difficult to get my needs and wants across, without it being… pushy? or just walking away and feeling like I am unworthy of being listened to anyway. I have been doing some reading into what it is that I actually need to do in order to be better at this, but I am much better at coming from things in a more “Dominant” Angle.
I am loving working at FH. Working for and with my Miss can be a difficult thing, because I have to try and split work/service. I am still working on how that can work. I am enjoying the learning process. I also work with my pup, talk about a “happy family”
More soon.
Bear.
